I'm having a totally shithouse day today.  Really crap.  Like couldn't get any worse kind of crap.  Some days I'm just sick of my life.

Everything is on top of me at the moment.  Tax, work paperwork, validation audit preparation.  I just don't know where to start, and it seems that whatever I do isn't enough.

Something one of the co-ordinators from my scheme said to me today really pissed me off.  She said - "When you do some study then you'll understand all of these things".  I found that to be insulting and somewhat condescending.

I have grown very tired of their "We want to nurture you to undertake all the tasks in a way that suits you" words - which in reality masks their "our way or the highway" standpoint.  I come up against it time after time, and I'm just so sick of it.  I wish they'd just say - "Do it this way, and just get on with it."  But instead we have to go round and round in circles, only to get to "just do it this way".

I am feeling antsy because I haven't made, sewn, created or crafted anything for a few weeks now - every time I feel like sitting down to do something, the fierce stab of obligation to complete my tax or qality validation work bears heavily down on me.  Today I sat down and did about two solid hours of work, then we had a little dip in our power and the safety switch turned off all the power, and with it went some of what I'd done.  Frustrating.  Luckily I had print outs.

I'll be glad when 17th December rocks around.  It'll all be over then.

posted by: blytheswideshut at November 10, 2005 17:14 | link | comments (2) |

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#1  21 November 2005 - 23:51

 

If you weren't so far away I would tell you to send Romeo to me.

Anonymous

#2  22 November 2005 - 06:03

 

He's a sweet, sweet dog, you'd love him I'm sure.

blytheswideshut

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