tomato chilli jam

At lunch today I had a rather nice savoury muffin served with sour cream and tomato chilli jam.  The jam was rich, dark, savoury and sweet and ever so slightly hot all at the same time.  Yum.  I bought some to take-away...and had some with my steak at dinner.

My studio is now completely mine.  All instruments except for my cello are gone.  My other desk is here now, and it's all about me now.   I'm happy.  But it's cold up here...very chilly.

It was 4:30am this morning before I could get to sleep.  I was just up all night wide awake.  When I eventually made myself go to sleep it was a real struggle.  I slept fitfully, waking often.  The muppy kept stretching his legs and trying to push me out of bed - I blame him for my bad sleep; what little I actually got.

We had lunch with Kevin & Tracy on the spur of the moment.  I'm never very good when arrangements are sprung upon me, but it went ok, and at least the cafe was nice.

I'm feeling a little flat at the moment, have been all week.  Babies are playing on my mind.  I spoke to the International Adoption section of the Department of Families on Friday and they basically said that "yes" they'd received our expression of interest (in Sept 04), but that the earliest we could possibly expect to be invited to test our eligibility would be early 2006.  It seems a number of "couples" have already been through the process, and we just weren't selected this time round.  Three groups have already gone through, with another two to go by the end of this year.

It's hard not to feel dejected about the whole state of affairs.

posted by: blytheswideshut at July 10, 2005 20:32 | link | comments |

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