two little lines

I'm pregnant.  I can't believe I'm writing that.  I'm going to have a baby.  I'm going to be a Mum, Scott's going to be a Dad.  My life is about to change in ways I never imagined.

I'm very excited.  It's 5am.

posted by: blytheswideshut at October 23, 2008 04:01 | link | comments (3) |

pangs, twinges and nausea

I feel like I'm getting my period.

posted by: blytheswideshut at October 19, 2008 18:47 | link | comments (2) |
art, ivf, 2ww

symptoms that must mean I am pregnant...

Of course the following must mean that I'm pregnant.  The waiting is killing me, so to make it easier I'm stuffing food in my mouth as though the famine is hot on my heels and totting up "symptoms".

Sick in the morning.  A queasy car sick feeling that usually wakes me up about 5am, a drink and a pee seems to help the feeling abate.

Sore, sore, sore boobies, and other mysterious boobie changes.

Tired. So tired.  Did I mention the tiredness?  Last night I barely made it to 9pm.

There are more, but that's all for now.

posted by: blytheswideshut at October 17, 2008 06:11 | link | comments |

Day 5

I almost can't bear it.  I feel full of energy and restless but tired at the same time.  I'm hungry but queasy and billious all together.  I've never been good at waiting, but this truly is the hardest wait.

The two most obvious changes are that I'm so so tired.  I am barely making it to 10pm and I'm up at 5am.  There's nothing to do at 5am people!  Especially when the second change is factored in - a car sick feeling, of wanting to throw up and eat at the same time.  Incidentally when changing a nappy this morning I was moved to vomit. twice.

I'm looking at prams, strollers, buggies, pushers and that stuff.  That's not good is it?

posted by: blytheswideshut at October 13, 2008 11:21 | link | comments |
art, ivf, 2ww

what a co-inky-dink

Upon publishing (doesn’t that sound so professional?) my previous post I noticed that my last post here was in October of 2007.  I'm going to try harder, I promise.

posted by: blytheswideshut at October 12, 2008 05:29 | link | comments |
blogging

4 days...into the 2WW

Four days post egg transfer.  I have to resist the urge to write in "forum speak" - all those abbreviations do my head in.  Despite the fact that every little shift and groan within my body seems noteworthy at the moment, I am hopeful. 

I feel pregnant - surely that's got to count for something? Right.  Among a fairly hefty list of other things, I feel sick as a dog in the morning.  No vomiting - probably because there's nothing left in my tummy by the morning, but genuinely queasy and car-sick feeling.

Anyway I'm trying not to dwell on it, it's early morning here and actually thinking about possibly being pregnant is the luxury I allow myself for getting out of bed at 5am.  (I keep waking in a pool of sweat, at 5am for god's sake.  I'm also all tuckered out and fast asleep by 9:30pm at night at the moment - another sign?)

The ART process went a lot better than I expected.  The most difficult and stressful aspect of the whole process was getting to the early morning appointments and back again without inconveniencing anyone too much.  A couple of notable times everyone was running late and we got back here more than an hour late - which made the Mums late.  I was genuinely upset about that so on Thursday I gave them all a lovely bunch of roses and a little gift to help smooth out any ruffled feathers .  Also to pave the way a little bit for any future treatment - make them feel a little more disposed to bearing with us through it all again.

The spray, the injections, the ultrasounds (yes the transvaginal type - every second day! woot), the egg pickup and the transfer all went textbook well.  There were only two minor hiccups - one was that I took quite a long time to respond to the "Gonal F" which is the FSH or follicle stimulating hormone that "grows" all the follicles on your ovaries ready for the egg pickup.

The second was that despite getting 12 eggs! (12! I couldn't believe it when I woke up after the surgery) There was barely enough viable sperm to fertilize 10 eggs (so 2 were wasted straight off the bat), of that 10 only 4 took, 3 went to expanding blastocyst and 1 didn't make it. 

So we have one currently (I was going to write swimming - but gah! we don't want him swimming, we want him burrowing nicely into my uterus) transferred and two frozen for next time.

Only 10 more days until I can pee on the stick.

posted by: blytheswideshut at October 12, 2008 05:19 | link | comments |
art, ivf, 2ww